Thanks to the AI tools in the internet, now I can regulate myself in better words. Since I don't want to forget what kind of person is myself in 'The 33 Year-Old Me', I will write some paragraph about it. Disclaimer, all of this is made by the help of ChatGPT and I note this down to be the starting point of my long journey to know-me-better.
Through this personal blog, I am starting a project to fully understand myself, and from it I come to like myself more than ever.
I am someone who seeks meaning and purpose in everything I do. Literally, everything.
I am always striving to understand myself better and grow from that awareness.
I have to be fully aware of myself. What I like, what I don't like, what's my strength, what's my weakness, what I am feeling at the moment, etc. That's why I find it really enjoyable to describe myself through words.
If I should describe my 33 year-old self in three words, it's; Thoughtful, Creative, and Ambitious.
If I should find a pattern of my life, my life is very fine. I never fly rocket high or hit the rock bottom, maybe it's because I am a responsible and rational person who love to stay away from problem as much as i can. Yes, I am not a risk taker. I am also living super consciously and super aware of my emotion. Let's say, I have a good balance of my emotional and rational mind. For certain things I always follow my feeling, but when I am faced with problem, I try to draw back and use my rational thoughts as logical as possible. I always choose a solution with the biggest gain for myself.
I am always clear with the reason of why I do things. I hate doing something half-heartedly, if I can't do something wholeheartedly, I better not doing it at all. For big choices I make in my life, if I am comfortable with something I don't take any second options, I will choose the first one and stick to it. For example in choosing a life partner, a hospital for my baby, in choosing an obgyn doctor, etc. I live simple.
My priority in life is always my family and a harmonious life with people around me. I love peace. I love it when everyone is happy because of me. I think my life purpose is to be useful for all the people I love and make them proud. When I see them satisfied with my work, I feel fulfilled and content.
I am Creative and Love Expressing Myself
My passion for art, whether through illustration, design, photography, or other forms, reveals a natural creative energy. I love making, exploring, and creating, and it’s clear that my mind is always buzzing with ideas. My creative spirit is fueled by curiosity, and that curiosity drives me to try new things, dive into multiple projects, and push the boundaries to express myself.
I am Ambitious
I am highly motivated and always looking to achieve more. Whether it’s running a business, growing my illustrated pyjama brand, or make a personal art project, my ambition is evident in the way I approach life. I have big goals and dreams, and not afraid to pursue them. However, balancing these ambitions sometimes leaves me feeling overwhelmed. Especially with a bad time management.
I am Reflective and Self-Aware
I spend a lot of time analyzing my thoughts, habits, and behaviors, constantly searching for ways to improve. This self-awareness helps me understand why I do certain things, and connect me deeply to my inner emotions. I tend to analyze myself when things don’t go as planned and always try to identify patterns or solutions.
I am Empathetic and Family-Oriented
I deeply care and dedicate my heart and soul to my family. I always want to be present for my son and husband, and committed to being a good mother, wife, daughter and daughter-in-law. I take my role as a parent seriously, striving to create a nurturing and supportive environment.
I am A Perfectionist
I have a drive for perfection that fuels both my creative process and my work. While this leads me to aim for excellence, it sometimes makes me difficult to start or complete projects because I always put a high standard. I am still struggling with feeling like I am not doing enough, even though actually I am doing a lot.
I am Curious About Many Things in Life
I have a diverse range of interests—from art to business to family life—and my curiosity drives me to explore all these areas. I don’t like being boxed into one role or passion; instead, I seek to grow and evolve by learning new things. This makes me always looking for new challenges.
I am Resilient and Independent
Despite a lot moments of self-doubt, I'm building up resilience. I grow more confident in my abilities, especially after meeting my husband. I am not afraid to speak up or take charge. I have learned how to stand on my own and handle multiple responsibilities, from business to family, without relying too much on others.
I am Emotionally Complex, A Melancholic But Also A Sanguine
I am someone who experiences both joy and anxiety deeply. While I appreciate the happiness in my life, there’s always an underlying sense of fear or worry that something could go wrong. This emotional complexity courages me to always be prepared for the future.
That's what the AI said, but overall the result is the same, I am a creative, ambitious, and deeply thoughtful person. I strive for balance between my many passions and responsibilities, but still constantly learning and growing along the way. I value self-reflection and always push myself to become better, even when I faced with challenges.
This is me so far. What do you think about 'The 33 Year-Old Me'?